The Quickest Year
Last week, our little Scooty [Scout] turned one. I’m still in disbelief because 2018 may very have been the quickest year of my life… I mean, I thought Oscar’s first year flew in, but this second baby malarkey is next level, is it not?!
It’s been the most magical year. She’s been so laid back and fitted into our family perfectly. I can’t help but feel sad that she is growing up as she is the last baby, but it’s also amazing to see the little person that she’s growing into. I wrote a post when she was just new about how I felt that I am a “different mother” this time round, and I still stand by that. Our second baby has brought us the amazing chilled newborn-ness but without the inevitable worry that comes with the first. Able to soak up all those little magical moments without the overwhelming shock that your life has just been turned upside down and forever changed. It’s just easier, and for me, more natural.
Our Unicorn Baby
Although, as Scout has got older, I’ve realised that I’m a different mother in other ways too. Basically, my cup of care is dwindling. I’ve not had the time or even inclination to create routines or analyse “leaps”.
For the first 4 months of her life, she slept like a baby unicorn. She slept like I didn’t know it was possible for a newborn to sleep. Of course, it’s all gone to complete sh*t now, however, a good friend of mine made a very valid point – those first few days, weeks and months are the toughest to adjust and settling into life as a family of four, so being well rested is invaluable. And that’s true. I just wish it had lasted longer… but, it’s not forever, yada yada, one day we’ll be dragging them out their beds, yada yada, eyeroll.
Baby two has broken all the “rules” and she gets cut slack that we never would have with Oscar. I am ashamed to say I spend many an hour actually in her cot feeding her to sleep most [ok, every] night before stealthily ninja-ing my boob away and climbing out. Anything for an easy life.
There were also nights in summer when I was trying to create a bedtime routine, but failed miserably to be honest, because if she didn’t settle I’d just give up after 3 seconds and bring her back through to the living room to watch Love Island with me… because, well , I didn’t wanna miss Love Island, did I? This is stark in contrast to the bedtime drill Oscar had. In his (nearly) three and a half years on this planet, he has not once left his bedroom after “bedtime” – poor lad!
I think I’ve realised that with your first baby the next milestone is new and exciting and you can’t wait for it, second time round, I’ve been happy to just enjoy her and long to keep her small, however unrealistic that is.
Happy Birthday, Miss Scout Zelda Rose –
375 days new with 8 teeth that sometimes still get clamped around my nipple at 3am.
Who knows what you weigh because we never take you to the Health Visitor drop in clinic. Sorry.
You’ve been to London and Disneyland Paris & your first wedding but slept through the majority of it. That’s ok, there’ll be plenty more adventure.
You started walking at 11 months, so that’s something to hold over your brother, he didn’t bother till he was 14 months. It’s come with it’s fair amount of bumps and bruises, but you’re getting there.
You love clementines, swimming, snuggles, kisses and music.
You can say “Dada” and “Hiya” and I honestly thought you said “Teddy” the other day but I probably imagined it.
You’re feisty but gentle, strong willed but cautious. Your laugh is infectious. You’d play peekaboo all day if you could – preferably with Oscar. You love him.
We also think you look a little like Pikachu the Pokemon.
Most of all, we love you beyond measure.
All in all, 2018 was amazing, but also really hard and stressful at points and we were saying the other day, that Scout has been the easiest bit of it. Of course there have been the cranky 3am breakdowns but it’s all been far outweighed by her little toothy, scrunched up nose grin.
She makes us laugh all day and our hearts burst over and over at the wee bond that’s forming between her and her brother. I mean, it wasn’t love at first sight, for Oscar at least, it’s been a grower, but they’re getting there and it’s wonderful.
What a year. Can’t wait for the next, I hope it slows down, but have a feeling it won’t.